This is Part 2 of Alex’s Story.
Kyle and I had been married for 3 years when we decided to pursue the foster to adopt process. In the fall of 2016 we began the process of becoming licensed foster parents.
April 15, 2017, we received a call from our case worker saying that there was a newborn baby at the hospital ready to be adopted.
We were told that the birth mother had already signed all the paperwork. We were advised to get everything ready and prepared because this baby was ours and would be coming home with us.
I call up my mom in Florida and she immediately booked a flight to be with us. We started getting everything we needed for a baby. Kyle and I were ecstatic that we were finally getting the baby we had been praying for.
On my Birthday, April 17, 2017, after 2 days of not getting a whole lot of details from the case worker, they decide to finally tell us that the baby was being given to another family.
Words cannot express how Heartbroken, devastated, and confused we were. In 2 days, we went from elation to complete and total devastation. We were emotionally exhausted. Soon after this, we decided that we were to emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted to move forward with the foster to adopt process. The whole process felt like a train wreak and we needed to protect ourselves from more hurt.
We had been through so much heartache in the last couple of years, that we decided we were done. Done with everything… Meds, doctors, fostering.
Emotionally we were just exhausted!
Kyle and I thought that it may be time to accept the fact we may never become parents. At this point we stopped trying to get pregnant. We closed the book on the foster process, and we just lived our lives.
We focused on energy on loving our nieces and nephews. We volunteered in the children’s program at church. We felt that if we were not going to be parents, then we would sow into the children that were in our lives. And love them the best we could.
I continued to pray for a miracle, but I stopped letting it control me as much as it had before.
Around April/May of 2019 I got this overwhelming sense of peace that one day I would be a mom. I cannot explain it, but I had this calming peace over me.
I met with my mom and my spiritual mothers and let them know that I had this overwhelming peace. I knew that God would make something happen when it was time. I started sharing my story and testimony with others. I wanted to help others who were going through what I am.
Mother’s Day of 2019, my church had a panel of women sharing their stories of motherhood, which included a mom, Rachel, who had lost a baby of her own. After the panel was finished, I went up to the alter to be prayed for and then I shared my story with Rachel.
Little did I know God had a plan.
This is where my adoption story begins.
**All images are Alex’s personal family photos that I did not photograph. Several images were photographed by Hannah Bergman photography
